She's great in so many ways, and really abusive in others. I love her very much.

I'm at a crossroads of a lot of feelings of guilt about not wanting to let her suck the blood out of me now.

I wish it was just all loving, and she hadn't exploited and used me, and she hadn't ruined everything she couldn't control. I wish she could just be nice and non-toxic. I'd help her more then.

But, at least she didn't mess with my blanket.

Can a Narcissist be a great mother all in all?