I don't think you give yourself enough credit Mr. Stranger (thats my attempt at cheering you up, lol, I understand if it didn't work, but I think it's true. Go easy on yourself, too) You are a valuable person in this community. I'm sorry that these are things you have experienced. Being upset is very valid and very ok. I think different people experience ****** experiences differently. It brings me solace to know that at least I'm not the only one, you know? I'm very sorry you are hurting. I know you've recognized before that you are experiencing depression. When things happen with people on the outside as well, such as family or teachers...it's doubly hard. All any of us wants is to feel loved and worthy. Any who, you're always appreciated here. I saw this article a few days ago and thought of you. Maybe it will resonate with you, maybe it won't. But I'll just put it here: https://www.brainpickings.org/2014/0...oy-confession/