Thank you everyone for your replies!

This whole therapy journey is just so exhausting sometimes. This attachment stuff really is the hardest part to deal with I think. In previous session I felt so connected to T but this last session felt like there was a barrier between us. I put up the barrier and although I'm annoyed at myself I'm annoyed at T too and I don't know why. She did nothing wrong.

I also have loving feelings/thoughts towards T rather than actual love (like Elio mentioned) but it feels so real. I know it has to be transference because I don't know what T is really like as a person and I can't love a complete stranger.