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Originally Posted by starrysky
I don't think you give yourself enough credit Mr. Stranger (thats my attempt at cheering you up, lol, I understand if it didn't work, but I think it's true. Go easy on yourself, too)  You are a valuable person in this community. I'm sorry that these are things you have experienced. Being upset is very valid and very ok. I think different people experience ****** experiences differently. It brings me solace to know that at least I'm not the only one, you know? I'm very sorry you are hurting. I know you've recognized before that you are experiencing depression. When things happen with people on the outside as well, such as family or teachers...it's doubly hard. All any of us wants is to feel loved and worthy. Any who, you're always appreciated here. I saw this article a few days ago and thought of you. Maybe it will resonate with you, maybe it won't. But I'll just put it here: https://www.brainpickings.org/2014/0...oy-confession/ |
Hi starrysky! Thanks for your post and for the link. I skimmed through the article, and although I didn't read it carefully because I cannot focus very well and English is not my first language, and although I heard that Leo Tolstoy is a great writer, I think he formulated the truth accurately at first, but then he denied it for the sake of keep living.
Also, it seems that he wasn't aware of the "Origin of Species", Charles Darwin's book on natural selection, the mechanism of which evolution and diversification of life have taken place, because he claimed that he didn't find the answer in science. According to natural selection, any trait that enhances the surviving rate is selected and passed down. Obviously, a tendency to kill oneself is bound for eliminating the human race and realizing its own extinction, while clinging on life and fear of death makes it survive. Life is just an animal instinct. But he was right when he said we exist because we exist, but with the wrong explanation in my opinion. We exist because we exist, because we cling on life and fear death, and this is something genetic and instinctive.
Of course, as humans who have brains that were designed
precisely to find a cause for each effect (a moving tree means a tiger), religion was invented to give the life a meaning. Undoubtedly, and here I concur with Tolstoy, religious people live more happily than nonreligious people, and this has been proven statistically, but the reality is that they are delusional the most (no offense. Most people are delusional, even nonreligious ones). Ironically, to live in this life you don't have to be rational, this is because rationality is a by-product of something else. Our brains weren't evolved to do philosophy and math and to contemplate on life itself. The brain is merely a surviving-enhancing organism.
Just wanted to point out this, and reading the article, I think Rose was right. I do have existential crisis/depression according to the article. But the instinct of life in me is still strong, and I'm sure I will be "
intoxicated with life" (very descriptive) as the majority are at some point, when my current situation changes.
Thanks again.