Hi twirls01, I can relate to your struggle. I have had an eating disorder since I was a teen—I am 36 now. Food is my worse enemy and yet my best friend. In some ways food disgusts me—I hate the thought of it going into my body and yet I can sit and eat a stack of candy bars in 10 minutes. Part of me even loves eating the candy bars. I get mad I eat, I get sad, I eat…and then the pendulum swings the other way and I starve myself for weeks or months at a time. It is hard for me to strike a balance.

I really feel for you twirls—know that you are not alone. Hang in there.