I hate the feeling that I am just hanging on by a thread until the next session. And I have certainly felt that way a lot. And I get what you said about not wanting to tell the people in real life about what you are feeling. For me the goal seems to be getting stable/deactivated to the point where I would actually consider telling the people in my life how I feel, and also to be ok with sharing feelings once they get less intense. And the only reason I have stuck it out is because I had no other option. I could not go on the way that I was feeling, and meds didn't work.

Not much of an answer, is it?