HI Flutterby11, I have been following this thread. I am so sorry you are experiencing such pain and struggle. In my opinion you have been suffering too long and are in danger. PLEASE take yourself to ER. Your life is precious and you need urgent help. I Know you are worried about your fish but this is more important, they will probably be ok and you can get long term feeders if you're worried. Take action so you can end your suffering. We all care about you.