I just needed to vent about this somewhere people understand and won't judge. So my father in law passed away last night. he's been sick for weeks and it was expected. my husband left this morning to be with his family, about 3.5 hours away.
i feel terrible for even worrying about this right now but he plans to stay over for a few days, and he's hoping the funeral will be sunday. he expects my young daughters and I to go to the funeral.

here is my fear. i haven't driven on an interstate in over three years. i get panicky and so i avoid it. driving my kids and i to the funeral 3.5 hours away would not only involve the interstates but driving through new york city.

i'm afraid hubby will expect this of me as he feels i need to just "get over it" re driving interstates. i don't think i can do it. especially with my kids in the car i would be so nervous about keeping them safe.

maybe it will work out so he can come home and we can all go together. maybe i'm worrying for nothing. i just needed to vent.