Being sensitive is really hard sometimes. I woke up, didn’t feel motivated to go to zumba. went anyway. Nobody talked to me, even though there are some familiar faces. I’m relatively new still. But I wish someone talked to me. I think the reality, is that if someone seems sad, sensitive, or shy, people don’t want to talk to you. They are like, afraid of me or something. Or just uninterested. I can’t pretend not to care. That I am lonely. That I wish I could share my life with someone. Not that it will make it better. But I just wish I was happy. I wish I didn’t wake up from ****ing nightmares of that last guy I dated. I hate him. How could he do this to me. Did he know the harm he would cause? Did he care? I want to date again. But I’m so uncomfortable with the idea of online dating, that whenever I get close, I feel emotionally sick. Terrified and very uneasy. I’ve had so many hurtful experiences. I wish he was dead.