Hi,
I have issues with my mom and sister. They have hurt me in the past and I separated myself about three different times but always let them back in.
I don't understand my behavior about letting peope back in..does it mean I don't matter to myself or does it mean I get over things or ddoes it mean I feel ike people deserve another chance?
My mom talks down to me, and I believe my sister thinks shes better than me and I believe my mom caters to this and they both want me to take the role of the one who isn't good enough but I don't want to take that role obviously..
I am 38 and have been trying to get self esteem my entire life.
I feel like keeping them in my life and the role they give me is hurting me..i have tred putting boundaries but they contact me constanty... I am in a troubling situation where I may not have a place to live soon but they aren't the people I want to help me because its an emotional disaster for me....

also my firend keeps asking if I talk to them because I told her in confidence hoping she would understand that I don't speak to them anymore..and she told me to talk to them and she hopes I do???why???wtf is it to her? I told her there are issues..why do people think they know what is best for me? why are people so controlling....
I haven't responsed to my friend because I think its none of her business if I tlak to my family or not sinc she deosn understand...shouldn't have told her that's what you get for trusting a friend? betrayal? why do I HAVE to speak to my family if they hurt me..is it a requirement for life??
I am confused and depressed...