Thank you, Marylin! I feel I needed someone else to love me first to prove to me I could be loved.. First, it was my therapist, then when I built enough trust to bring a friend into my confidence, it was her, too. I've started to see more and more how many people love and care about me - it's not 'perfect' love, though, for many of them it's limited, but I now realise that's about them, not me. You can only love others as much as you love yourself.

Learning to love myself more and more is my next step Or more like, accepting it.. Pushing through the urge to stay the same. I'm scared of change.. But I have to believe and trust this change will be for the best It'll make me feel good.. I WANT to feel good! No one's supposed to suffer..