I have been through 13 sessions now. 10 uni and 3 bi. The last one they introduced ketamine to try to smooth my awakening process out.
OMG, that was the most horrifying feeling I have ever had. I felt like I was inside pure evil. Words cant describe the hopelessness I felt, and i am already feeling hopeless as this was the last thing for me to try after many failed AD trials and 33 TMS sessions that did nothing to make my severe depression budge. I am horrified to continue ECT after the last one. Why on Earth wont i respond to anything!