I know it so soon but I feel so lost without my dog. I'm not very religious and I know people mean well but there's little solace in "he's in a better place or you'll see him later"
There's just sadness. We had to put him down unexpectedly yesterday. He was such a character and so pervasive in it home. Every thought of him makes me feel worse and worse. And so many little parts of our day reminds us of him. Eating dinner, coming home is painful. Washing laundry even is hard.
I have had ****** life of sorts but for the last few years it had been okay. But I hadn't had to deal with death directly or at least not as an adult. I had so many pet deaths, some pretty gruesome but this one has rocked me. Moose was here day and night. We'd talk to him about everything,put his name in every song that heard. Instead of poker face it's ma ma moosey face. And many other examples.
I have my husband for support but he's grieving to and looking at him just reminds me of moose so much. When I met him online the first photo I kept was of him and Moose.
I am not looking forward to work or when my husband goes to work. He has a later schedule so I'm in the house alot.
I'll want to have a new pet eventually (though the time line is in dispute with my husband) but will I ever not compare it to moose. I just want a replacement even though he's irreplaceable. He did some many weird and funny things that he was always a delight to be around.
Right now all I do is cry for my baby boy. One day here one day not.
PS anyone know how to relieve eye soreness from crying?