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Old Nov 17, 2007, 04:16 PM
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As you all know T and I had an awful session this week. He called me the next morning to reach out and a part of me was so relieved and another part was still upset with him.

We had several conversations about what had happened and then I saw him the next day. He asked me what I needed from him and I told him I needed to re-establish the feeling of safety in the room. He asked what he could do and I said that I just needed to hear him talk.

My inner child was so wounded and she needed to hear that soothing voice. And so we talked and chatted and shared. He disclosed some more about his family. I began to experience safety again. Good old T.

At one point during the "repair" he said that I was so completely in the transference that it was difficult for me to have an objective view of what happened.

At first I was unsure of this but now that a few days have elapsed and I find 'me' returning I know he was right. The experience was familiar: the tears, the absolute washout of being present, the whole package. Trauma reincarnated.

We agreed that he will intervene a bit more to help me when I am so very lost.

He said he felt lucky that he had patients who try to find their voice. (Something I had said at the beginning of the ****** session.)

Ahhhhhh, yes, I guess I'll keep him. Too bad he's blind now because I poked his eyes out.
Love is blind?

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