so far this weekend has taken me to he'll and back and its not barely started ,I cant remember when i was ever as angry as I have been and justifiably so,I have been so desperately sad again Justified, I have felt helpless,I have felt ashamed,worried almost to the point of vomiting ,and then more crap comes my way ,can I cry? not one single tear? do I want to ? yes I feel I need to cry an ocean , I am starting to think is this why I rebel against my meds ? are they numbing me out too much ? butt if this is the case why do i still feel so bad I feel like a bomb about to explode I feel like i need to.... i want to drink, oh im just gonna shut up now cos this is turning into a self pitying rant sorry guys.