As usual, I find myself getting a little paranoid about certain people in my life. Maybe paranoid is a strong word, but what I keep doing is reading into every little thing. I'm afraid of falling back into that pattern where I have a lot of self-doubt, always thinking I say the wrong things or come off a certain way....even when all I do is try to be sweet to everyone. I still think they are thinking such things about me and that I am not worth their time.

Even though I wonder if I am being rational or not, I can't get it out of my head that I am annoying everyone, that people don't want to be bothered with me, and that there's something wrong with me. Sorry if I sound like a broken record. I was doing pretty good this week, observing how the higher dose of Seroquel is helping, but today hit me like a ton of bricks. Still trying to stay hopeful that these feelings will pass and that I can feel better about myself and confident about who I am.