I kind of get it. I suffer from chronic migraines and only a few people in my life seem to understand that no matter what I am doing to try to prevent the migraines from happening I am still getting them. I take medications to prevent pain but it is causing me more pain so yeah, catch 22...people with chronic pain are very misunderstood.

It's not self pity if you are in pain BUT

I am a bit alarmed to hear at the amount of pain killers you are taking though?? Have you explored surgery with your doctor? I understand you are in pain, but it sounds like you are immune to these drugs. Please rethink this route you are taking.

You need to see your doctor about this. You heading toward disaster if you keep taking this amount of medication!!!! Whether it's legal or not, I don't care, not here to judge but you know it's you're life.