Welcome cheesepie1 this is very strange. I have major depression with associated anxiety and panic attacks. It was under control but some of the side affects of the meds were bad. This was in 2002 and in 2015 the psychaitrist reduced my paxil from 40mg to 20mg. 3 weeks later I awoke to multiple brain zaps like 20 0r 30 like a pack of fire crackers.They reintroduced paxil back to 40mg. I haven't been the same and my ex to be thought it was a good time to leave. I'm the only sibling near my widowed mom who is in declining health. In june I became deaf from fluid behind my ears it's meneir's its been over year and have rained on my brother and sisters parade because I can barely take care of myself and have been unsupportive like snap out of it. Now I learned they have been talking about me the only problem I wasn't there. So they are going to to probably try and put me in the mental health hospital because I'm useless to them now my brother was swearing at me today because I talk about my illness to my mom who apparently is sick of it but when I was healthy she sure had a lot of projects for me.When I told her about the divorce my mom said well I hope you learned your lesson? I didn't understand this I was faithful cooked cleaned mowed the grass paid the bills I think they are mentaly ill.