My girlfriend is a sweet girl. I just graduated high school she was a freshman now a sophomore about to be a junior. When I met her, I was in a little sad place after being rejected a bunch and looking for a girlfriend. We are long distance. I met her on meowchat 8 months ago we talked for a while and help each other out with each other's issues. she then got feelings for me and I got feelings for her. I've been in two long-distance relationships before so I wasn't so sure about it but she was so nice I felt like I'd be missing out on a great person. I didn't originally know that she was just a freshman though so I asked her to allow me to ask her parents if it was okay. So she asked her mom if I was okay or not and her mom said I was fine but her father lost it. I tried to call him, speak to him, I made him videos of who I was, and sent him a long email but it turned out her mom and her dad are not the best of people. Her dad had a history of being abusive and her mom was so so. He doesn't like other people who might threaten his rule as an alpha male . Had I known I wouldn't have asked her to ask them but she didn't tell me which is understandable seeing that she has been a victim of them. Her dad called me names and wouldn't speak to me and threatened his daughter to break up so we called it a break but she kept breaking down with just her parents without me and texted me back about three weeks later. A mother later on went to do something pretty violent and my girlfriend told the police and now her mother might be facing time or not and her dad won't do anything but he still tries to get to her emotionally. He tell her how much she doesn't like her how much she doesn't deserve happiness how much she can't stand her and so on. I've been there for as much as I can with also not listening to my own anger about the situation. I was pretty upset about the fact that she didn't just tell me these things before we got into a relationship but I love her so I just let it slide. She can be extremely needy needing me to text her on daily occasions and it can be frustrating when she has habits of lashing out on me over situations that aren't particularly about me. She'll be mad at a friend but if I talk about why that friend isn't the best right now and she'll lash out on me. Sometimes it can be particular phrases that bother her random ones that I don't know. Sometimes it's just if I fall asleep too early she will panic and blame me for the rest of the day. If I don't feel like talking she can kind of guilt trip. Not to say that she's not extremely supportive she helps out with a lot of things in my life family, job ideas, and more things. We don't do anything sexual just wanted to throw that out there. Sometimes she can just be in a particular mood. And recently I just don't know how I'm feeling. I've been trying hard to look for a job just so when she gets old enough she can move out and I'm trying to be her support without getting too involved to the point that makes her uncomfortable. I don't necessarily know what to do or how to feel about moments or problems . Thanks to me she says she is able to be happy and stop cutting. If it happens it takes a rare occasion based off too much stress from her father. Sometimes I don't know if I feel like if I knew the whole outline before I got into this and sometimes I don't know whether or not I'm happy. Usually we have long Happy Talk but every now and again she'll lash out while we're having a good moment and I don't want to yell at her or anything because her situation so it makes it hard to say everything on my mind. I've recently been having dreams I've seen other people but then have a dream where I'm with her and I'll be really happy. I really don't want to break up for anything cuz I want to be there for her but sometimes she makes it hard to be there and to make it worse I live with my mother who is a narcissist it doesn't care about our emotions or anything on an average, I could say these words and tell her how much my life hurts sometimes that she wouldn't even bat an eyelash or care then I just complained so sometimes and not in the best situation myself, I had two people pass away this year. How do you feel about the situation ? I haven't done anything legally wrong so don't worry about that I just want the opinion on what I should do in this situation. It's been 8 months I'm pretty sure we talk everyday for 5 month straight and over these last 3 months I've been feeling like this and kind of so so sometimes I really miss her sometimes she bugs me. She means a lot to me and the thought of her and paying her any problems or anything like that makes me like super angry. For waiting for 2 more years that's the plan. Sometimes I feel like I need to get myself out of the situation I don't want to leave her I really care about her . We work so hard do some work some this time . I don't know where they're not I'm just a bad person he likes a focus on himself . She says I'm always extremely kind to her I'm always looking out for her best interest and I'm always there for her but I don't know . I feel so self- centered. She'll often say I'm too hard on myself or that im trying to hard.
I don't know how to feel about this whole situation. My family likes for a lot. It makes me really sad that I'm not like the same happy person for her that I was the in the beginning. this is an anonymous entry.