I was out of the therapy when that happened, and I don't want to visit T any more. One of my biggest fears is that I know that other person sometimes asks for advice to the same T, so I just don't want to talk this issue with this therapist.
Your ideas of drawing revenge plans are great. Now when you have put this in words, I realised that it feels comforting to feel revenge, it gives me feeling of superiority (as if I was winning the battle). I fear to be the loser.
I don't want to rebuild relationship. I was fed up with broken promises, disrespect, seeing her being abusive to her family. I wanted to break it anyway. Still emotionally I hope to catch her attention, to talk, to rebound. Is it grief? Is it me dreading being left, causing someones anger?