Well, made it through work today. Last night I was physically tired but VERY agitated so I went to bed and meditated (well tried) for a while in hope I would fall asleep. Being awake was too painful. Instead I lay there for nearly five hours, apart from getting up a couple of times, and couldn't meditate or bring myself to do anything productive. I ended up sleeping till 7am, about 5.5 hours sleep. I felt awful when I woke but managed to take some meds (extra Abilify and Clonazepam) and get to work.

The odd thing is that somewhere throughout the busy work day I switched into energised and happy. I came home and played guitar for an hour. Now I feel like going to a party but have nowhere to go. BP is a funny thing. Just hope I can sleep tonight but at least the next few days are full of downtime. Oh, I forgot, I am seeing my pdoc on Tuesday (the one who ditched me over religion but I have to see until I get a new pdoc), with my parents too. I only hope he doesn't trigger me or try to push me into taking Topomax. I think considering all the stress I am under I am doing well so I don't think med change is needed.