Hi sad plant. I don't know what to say but I wanted you to know I read this, and it seems like you have a lot of guts to tell what happened. I'm sory I don't know what to say to you. I was severely abused as a child. I'm struggling very hard right now, but this isn't about me its about you. Just know I'm thinking of you, and keeping you in my thoughts. I'm so very sory I can't be of more help right now. But somehow this will all work out. It will. Blue Angel :