I do crave depression sometimes. I craved it for a long time when I couldn't seem to slow down and stop acting impulsively. Sometimes I just crave the feeling of wanting to stay in bed/in pajamas or even in the house all day. when I am more up I tend to feel guilty for wanting to be home and I'll push myself out of my comfort zone. And that usually ends up in feeling like a failure. Sometimes it's easier to just be depressed.