I'm glad you started to wake up from this Toxic Relationship,that's the gurl i want to see,keep moving forward concentrate on your Education have fun life is way to short to be unhappy for a person that does not even care about you,your education is very important to you.

Please stay away from Drinks and if you feel depressed just come here so we can talk trust me they wont help,drugs drinks anything they are just a partial distraction or pleasure,they are used from people that are Weak who can't cope with the reality,if you learn to make yourself happy you can get happy just by drinking''Water''that's how independent you have to be to find happiness in every little piece of life,just telling you for the future.

I'm glad your also working out that's really healthy,healthy body=healthy spirit and healthy thinking.

Also always remember thiso not check his Facebook it will get things harder for you,do not follow his daily activity,delete the pictures from your phone if you emotionally can't handle them it will only make things worse for you,from this day on he is for you a Ghost or Lord Voldemort(the guy that his name must not be known or pronounced daily on your Language Dictionary),at least apply this rule till you get yourself alive again till you get back to the Gurl you were years ago the strong independent one,when you feel that strong then you can look at them and laugh your *** because they won't really mean anything to you.

Listen to me once again:No matter how much you burn inside how much pain your feeling how much anger sorrow,do not contact him ever,every time you feel that punch the punching bag cry get sad come here drop 100s of messages just never ever''Contact him no matter what happens,even if he lies or manipulates fakes something like something bad happened to him or death or whatever,they are proffesional lier's trust me on this no matter what do not contact him,because he already knows your weak points he will use them against you,he knows that every time he reaches out and lies you will drop to your knees why?BECAUSE YOU CARE ABOUT HIM YOU FEELED YOU HEAD EMPATHY YOU REALLY LOVED(and that's how a normal individual would act including myself but your dealing with a guy that lacks empathy so never ever,even if he comes back lies to you don't drop yourself low)Why?Because you have to remember always this,do you really think that the guy left you already so many times will start realizing how wrong he was and start seriously loving you?Hell ****ing no if he lied to you more then once if he followed this same pattern for years(always remember this he will always DO THE SAME THINGS no matter when what or where or what the circumstances are)

You right now are the boring gurl to him why?Because he knows that with a flick of his finger or the magical words he can make you do whatever he wants,he can sleep with you then throw you away he can play with your emotions once he feels down or his self esteem is down to get a ego boost,he can talk to you because your his safety blanket after he gets tho's stuff then he can **** with another 100 Woman.

Don't drop yourself that low know your own values know your own personality you don't need to be with someone who does not appreciate your kindness your pure heart your emotions,and does not appreciate you as a human being,keep your value always up to be respected by others and never let others dictate your happiness.

Also never contact to his family ever no matter what never forget this:It's her son no matter how bad he is it's her son or cousin or whatever,they will protect him not you no matter how bad of a person he is,never search justice and never try to help someone who does not see his mistakes,he will turn and started turning his family against you that's none of your business they are no one absolutely to Dictate your happiness(they are just strangers)there is a smart saying''When you start to solve a problem you always start from yourself otherwise it wont work,you never escape a problem you have to challenge the problem''The guy that has no idea what his actions are what he is causing can never ever solve the problem(the easiest way is to escape it)

And never ever forget this:If you keep him on your Facebook he can post pictures with other girls and look happy always remember this:A dead person from inside is never happy no matter what,he will get no matter if it's Angelina Jolie or Nina Dobrev to the same cycle that he is trying to do with you(The smart celebrity will escape the weak one will endure the pain then find a way out sooner or later he will be left alone),he might even provoke you with pictures of other girls etc never fall for that,because he knows 100% he can hurt you no matter what never allow that to yourself.

I'm going to share a song with you which is a life lesson for you:Go on youtube search for:Five Finger Death Punch - Wrong Side Of Heaven,it's a song based on true story and USA government neglecting and ignoring Homeless Soldier rights,who served gave their life for their country and connect this to your life story,the first 3 times i watched the video and listened to the song i cried like a baby.

Look what people are going through in life they sacrificed their life to protect their loved ones and no one answers them back with their Empathy not even the government,and they still continue to fight,imagine if you were put in this position what would you have done?There are 100% more difficult situations out there which myne and yours when we compare our situation to that has 0 value or none,but they are heroes the still fight,if you won't be able to walk away from something toxic you will suffer so much in this life wise the **** up and keep moving,''The soldiers are thinking in their self was it this easy after all i did for my Country to get discarded like that,after all i sacrificed to be left alone by my family,i did it for them not for myself to make this world a better place,that leads to PTDS some of them fail to help themselves some of them find the strength,be the strong one survive this hell get stronger grow as a person,i understand you it will bother you how easy was it for him to leave you after all tho's stuff he told you after all tho's times but it happened''I dedicated a tattoo on my forearm for this stuff which is''HIC ET NUNC(From latin language which means Here and Now-you have to live for the moment and make the best of it,no past or future actions should affect you,Live for the moment make the best of it it's on your hand,people always live or get affected by the past events trauma etc or think the future will be worst or better but the forget the most important thing which is ignored to live for the moment,be yourself in the moment right here right now)

''LIFE IS LIKE A RIDING BICYCLE,TO KEEP THE BALANCE YOU MUST KEEP MOVING FORWARD AND NEVER LOOKING BACK''
''THE KEY TO KEEPING YOUR BALANCE IS KNOWING WHEN YOU'VE LOST IT AND MOVING FORWARD''

Now on my standpoint with my girlfriend we stand no where 2 months nothing from her i don't care even love someone that does not care or love me,she is talking to all people possible trying to extract attention,ego boost everything,i don't care lol why would i care for ghosts,did i like anything she posted?Hell no why would i care she is dead for me,because deep down inside i know how unhappy she is and she is going to follow the same pattern she followed with me with god knows how many guys,i might have suffered for like 2 months but at the end of the day i'm back at my old self and i'm healthy and she will suffer a lifetime.

NEVER EVER FORGET THIS''WHEN YOU FLY SO HIGH LIKE SHE DOES FROM ZERO TO HERO YOUR DOWNFALL WILL BE FASTER THE YOU COULD IMAGINE''
''TO GET SOMEWHERE IN LIFE YOU WILL HAVE TO CRAWL NOT FLY FROM THE START BECAUSE YOUR GOING TO EVENTUALLY FALL THAT IT WILL HURT YOU SO BAD,FROM CRAWLING TO WALKING NOT FLYING''

SOONER OR LATER SHE IS GOING TO GET HURT SO BAD FROM A ALCHOOLIC BAD BOY OR A DRUG ABUSER THAT SHE IS GOING TO REALIZE HOW WRONG SHE WAS BUT DO I CARE?HELL NO,EVEN IF SHE COMES BACK I WILL NEVER EVER ACCEPT HER WHY?BECAUSE ONCE SOMEONE BREAKS MY TRUST IT'S BROKEN ONCE YOU ALLOW SOMEONE TO USE YOU HE WILL DO IT ALL OVER AGAIN,ONCE SOMEONE CHANGES THAT FAST HIS PERSONALITY HE WILL ALWAYS DO IT NO MATTER WHAT,SHE THINKS I WILL PIN MY HEAD FOR HER LIKE I DID IN THE OLD TIMES BUT THAT WON'T EVER HAPPEN AGAIN''

She will follow the same relationship pattern"IDOLISATION(LOVE BOMBING)-DEVALUATION-DISCARD(where you are left alone without an explanation) always with everyone remember this.

Never forget this once she/he breaks your trust or changes his personality that fast in a matter of day,week,month,year without a reason he was not the person you thought he was,i get it he has personality disorder,but he does not want to be helped and that's not your responbility,your searching for a soul mate a guy that has already found himself your not a Saviour,on the other hand he has no right no matter what to Monkey Branch you,with a person that has personality disorder it's all about him and if it's not you will get discarded,you have boundaries you have rights,take it this way''If someone invites you to a club a dance club and you go in there and he does not dance with you how would you feel?Like a real monkey you do everything for him and he does nothing he is monkey branching you''in relationships people make mistakes we are Humans but we should learn to come through mistakes handle situations like a real mature person talk through problems face the problems together be one and others safety blanket,it's not like whenever he needs you feels broken he just shows up you give him everything and then he dissapears,what about when you feel broken in that specific moment is he there hell no lol he is with other people god knows with how many other girls,because he does not care,i don't really care what personality disorder he has i just want you to know that you don't deserve to be treated poorly,you don't deserve to monkey branch on his Harem or you don't deserve to be Neglected and Ignored by someone because he is way to busy or does not feel like talking to and whenever he needs you your there,that's not an excuse that is some next lvl inmature thing whenever i feel i'll talk to you and whenever i don't you can **** off since i don't really care all i care is about myself and my well being once i need help i'll ask and i don't care if it means crashing you ruining you etc,that's inhumanity your not his prisoner,no matter how good you are no matter even if you sacrifice every bit of your strength your confidence your self esteem your body you will never be enough for him,sooner or later you are going to break down no matter what.

HOPE THIS HELPS
PEACE , LOVE , HAPPINESS , DAMON.