(I'm sorry about this post, it completely sucks - I'm completely out of ideas of how to escape this pain... except for... )

Better to be silent...

I should shovel these words down deep
Too dark too failure too old
Feel like I'm dying
Silence is ... death

My words are poison
Doctors were called to judgement
The judgement I always deserved
They only had to talk to me once
To know ....
To be "sure"

Unfixable
Not worth trying to fix this

Meds poison me
My face swells up
I look like a monster

A black bird
With broken wings
Sings outside my window
Calling me home

May Love come for me soon
Take this broken mind and body
Never belonged here
A mistake
Worse than a failure
A nothing..

(This is not about anyone on pc)