Thanks everyone. I definitely have a lot of work to do. I need to stop dwelling, and I'm very hard on myself. I get so focused on little things I've said and done, and the thoughts play over and over in my head repetitively, non-stop.

Then, I start thinking that everyone is judging me and turn their back on me. I read into everything and begin to cling on to others at times out of fear that they'll walk away, although I know this is unhealthy. I rely too much on their validation and care for me, instead of being able to take care of myself and accept myself.

I try to stay busy with work and other activities. The problem is, my mind wanders, the anxiety gets so intense that sometimes I can't distract myself. I start crying randomly, because intrusive thoughts enter my mind that tell me I do everything wrong. I know I need to change my thought process. It will take a while. Hopefully therapy will continue helping.