Thanks Prefabsprout. I'm trying so hard to stay strong but for the last three weeks I've felt like I'm losing it. I don't know which way to turn or what to do for the best. Last week I felt like I was starting to see the wood for the trees, anxiety and tears were easing but of course thus tummy bug has knocked me for six. I think he's really struggling too and I do have empathy but it's combined with anger because he caused all this. I need to cultivate patience and self care which I struggle with. Underneath it all I know I'm there so to speak but my emotions and fears get the better of me at times