i called my mental health worker but he hung up on me. i have been crying for the last hour and it doesnt look like it is going to stop for a while. i am so tired and there is such a deep hurt inside of me i even tried a hotline and they told me to go away i dont know what is wrong with me why does everyone hate me maybe it is just cause i am a horrible creature i know i am worthless it is just hard when things remind you of that fact. i am sorry i just needed to vent.