twirls...we're all mentally ill in some way. I believe that when I can talk with God and feel the joy of being in his presence without anything "between us" I know I'm in his purpouse for me and that he's the one in control of all my circumstances and issues and is working all things out for my benifit. It really allows me to praise him in a much deeper way which is what he really wants (I think) i for us to just trust him and know him...it may sound kind of difficult or perhaps like something that you just can't do,I used to think that way too until I realized that it's really is the only way to live successfully, he has delivered me from depression,smoking,drugs,co-dependency,poverty, and even my own self loathing and he's not done yet!...so I reccomend that you give him a try...just remember to "let go and let God"