I feel like I have to expend extra effort to behave "normally". On Friday, I was so hyped up, I APPEARED TO BE HIGH ON SPEED/COCAINE/METH.

When manic, my eyes dilate so that I become light sensitive. Of course the lack of impulse caused me to... take out my sunglasses during the interview and wear them! I realized this was abnormal so I pulled them off intermittently. (I'm now like who was that - not me!).

The energy was skyrocketing. I involuntarily make bug eyes/large eyes when it's rushing through me. (BP, according to some scientists, isn't a mood disorder but actually an energy disorder). One of the interviewers was keenly watching me because he had made that face, you know what I'm talking about, when I had initially ran into the office and began looking around the room and rapidly talking instead of calmly introducing myself. During the interview, I had successfully and intelligently answered the questions, intentionally trying to slow my speech.

During a break while another interviewer went to retrieve something, I slipped and began bouncing my knee. It was just a few seconds but I caught a glimps of the watcher noticing! Crap!! My cover was blown.

There were other odd behaviors that I exhibited and I think honestly they have never had a psych candidate interview with them.

This is not the first interview I have sabotaged with manic behavior. I prefer to be on the depressed side but then it appears that I'm not having a "positive, energetic demeanor". Fudge.

Help! Tips??