My monthly downward swing is starting again. I thought things were going to be OK today, but my mom started texting me earlier and I just wanted to sit here and cry. My morning at least was OK, I know I had some disturbing dreams again from the meds I was on, but I didn't remember them after I woke up. I guess I'm just going to have to push through the week. I see T tomorrow but I don't even want to go. Just don't see much point in it right now, since there is little she can do to help me improve my mood right now.