I've lost me & I don't know how to find me.

I can't think straight.

I can't organise myself.

When I try & think it's like my head has nothing in it or maybe it's blocked. I'm not sure.

I feel like a chameleon on the outside because I become whatever I need to be at any given time. Friend. Mother. Daughter. Neighbour. Customer. But on the inside there is nothing.

There is conflict inside me because in order not to let anyone down I keep doing the things that are expected of me. I go to work. I shop. I take my friend to the gym. I visit family. But all the time I feel I have no desire to be with people.

I feel I am failing them all. I feel I am failing myself.

I couldn't even decide where to post this.