I'm sorry if I offend anyone in the psychology field or those with loved ones in it, but I've never really vented about this and I think now's as good as a time as any.

I have seen 7 therapists/psychiatrists for my issues and none have been helpful. I'm not going to go through all of them, but I want to highlight a few of them. One was convinced that I had ADHD because I said I didn't like school, and spent both of my expensive appointments giving me IQ and other inane tests only to find out that, wow, I don't have ADHD! huge ****ing surprise, thanks doctor.

My most recent therapist (and the one I was most open with) was fine up until I started describing the more nasty parts of my personality and behaviors, to which she responded by judging me pretty harshly for things that are out of my control. I asked if she thought I was a bad person and she hesitated before saying no. I stopped talking at the sessions and finally ended it two meetings later.

Another great one was the one that prescribed me Celexa. This woman would not answer her damn phone. The ****ing pharmacy couldn't even get in touch with her. Honey it's your job to accept your clients' calls and manage the prescriptions. Stopped contact almost a year ago and she hasn't reached out since.

This other one basically threatened to have me committed if I ever even mentioned self harm or suicide. She actually almost succeeded one time but I made up some excuse and I got the **** out of there. I know it's their job to keep their clients safe but when you hold a gun to my head I'm just going to stop talking to you.

The absolute worst was this woman who wouldn't ****ing shut up about herself and her life. Every time I tried to express my concerns about a problem I was facing she'd interject to minimize how I was feeling and launch into some bs story about her dogs or her kids. I tried desperately to express to this woman that mood swings were having a major effect on my every day life, and she'd always ****ing go "well you're definitely NOT bipolar". like......I never ****ing said I was?? I lived 45 minutes away from this place so it was a major waste of gas and time.

I have stories for all of them but you get the point.

I'm not currently seeing anyone but I do take my meds. I'm pretty sore over these experiences and I feel like every time I reach out for help it's always answered by someone who doesn't give a **** about me or what I have to say. I have such a negative opinion of these people that I've pretty much dismissed therapy as an option. I know I need help but I'm so tired of not being listened to and not being taken seriously.