i was carrying around a big bag of 3 musketeers lol

i have also been on celexa, effexor, paxil and adavan(sp??) and none of them did anything. so i dont think anti depressants would do anything for me to not smoke.

whats stupid is that i started smoking because one of my friends bet me when i was 14 that i couldnt inhale without coughing. i want to go back 6 years and slap my friend in the face.

amazing how it starts as something small and stupid and ends up costing you thousands of dollars.

i think i just have one of those addictive personalities where i always have to be addicted to something. the biggest problem is that while im at work and want to smoke i cant just whip out my guitar and start playing to calm me down. i need to find a way to take my mind off of it when im not at home cause at home i never want one.