last time they did a blood test my testosterone was high, ive gained weight, gotten acne, my hair has grown waaaaay faster than normal and they have found cysts on ultra sounds. luckily the polyp in my uterus sloughed off with one of my periods but still caused massive pain. sometimes it feels like i know more than my doctors. i tell them for over 2 years "i have pcos" and they ignore me. when i first went to them with all these symptoms they blamed me. they told me to go on a diet and wash my face. and i tried to tell them "no its not me. this is not my body. i know my own damn body and this isnt it!" and they just brushed it off like i was hitting the end of my metabolism at 18. then i sit in a waiting room for 45 minutes for my doctor to talk to me for 3 and then i pay 20 bucks and get nothing out of it.

im seriously getting fed up with nobody ever listening to me. yes i know im only 20 but i know myself better than any doctor does so when i say something is wrong i want them to listen. and im also sick of doctors telling me its all in my head. i tried to tell my dad that if i were a man this would have been taken care of long ago and he goes "fine if you want to play the sexist card whatever" and i just sat there amazed. the sexist card?! its been shown in numerous studies that when men and women have the same symptoms women are more so told that its psychological while men are given treatment.

sorry, that was a rant lol. anyways. this time when i go in im not leaving until i have some answers. if they can make me wait for an hour and miss a day of work than they can sit down and listen to me talk.

on my last ultra sounds they said i had "several" ovarian cysts. i know exactly what it feels like when they rupture. i used to go to the e.r. before i knew what was happening but now im used to it. im worried that if they dont take care of this soon that my body will be so messed up that when i do want to get pregnant it wont happen.