I feel for you. Right now I am 40 divorced and single and wondering similar things. The thought of being alone for the rest of my life scares me. Then I recall all the people I know or have heard of who have found true love in their 40's, 50's and even 80's (that was my favourite. My neighbour lived alone and was 84. Then she met a married a lovely man. It totally changed her attitude towards life, she was glowing). There is hope for us all.