Ouch, an 81. That is tough. I scored lower then you but still in the "seek help immidiately" section. Guess you are not the only one fighting that battle. Keep coming here and keep talking to us. Come to chat, search the forums, maybe even try depression chat what ever night that is. We are all in this battle called life togehter. Lets work togehter and get threw it together. There are so many mice people here who have been where you are and understand exactly what you are feeling.

I hope this site gives you the new start in life that it did me. I came here every day for years and bit@hed about my situation. But eventually it got easier to deal with. I attribute that to my great friends here. I hope in a year from now you can say the same thing.