I have experienced the progress and the enlightening moments of realizing what has happened and bring some logic to it. I feel like I have made progress in that by itself.

The hard time ARE hard and I flip out, but in the moment of making sense of it, there is a freedom feeling of understanding and moving forward.

My counselor works with me in the moment of those hard times and he helps me walk in the direction of understanding and making sense of what's going on. It may take time, but there is progress as the fog fades.

All that to say, to me it feels like a journey of being free in understanding. If there was a diagnoses, I would feel trapped in it. To me, it would be like a statement of "this is who you are" and the progress, for me, would not be such a realizable and hoped for place.

That is just me. Thank you for sharing your experience and thoughts. From other's post and experiences, I'm just now understanding all this, or trying to, and this is best order I can make of it right now.

I hope I didn't offend anyone by my question. It was true and honest.

What is your "go to" when you are in a hard place? What helps you feel better? I think mine right now is a soak in some salt water and frankincense.