Hi simplylife,

You should never apologize for what you want to say or how you are feeling. Your feelings deserve to be acknowledged!! I know it may seem like "you're not amount to anything", but you went to grad school, that is something amazing you have accomplished. And sometimes, life gets in our way to prevent us to see something worthwhile, life will continue to beat us until we are nothing, but all I can say is that you have it in you!!. I know it's very difficult to go through this, and I can't imagine what that must be like to live with anxiety and depression to interfere with my life. All I know is that it all sounds very heartbreaking, but I should also remind you that setbacks make us the better us. I can offer you words of encouragement because even though I do not know you, I know you have so much potential just by what you described to me. But it's okay to fail, it's okay to allow ourselves the time to heal, but most importantly it's important to not give up. You're still 28, that's still so young, you have so much to contribute to. Sometimes, just doing little things (going outside/walking to a park) can contribute to something big!!! Hang in there buddy, and I hope I helped you, if not feel free to contact me whenever you like!! <3