I have an old friend who visits me every few years. In 2009, I apparently became mildly psychotic after he visited me. At the time, I believed that my friend was either willingly or unwillingly involved in some kind of conspiracy to harm me by casting spells on me or something. I didn't tell my friend any of this at the time, because he lived far away, and I didn't want to let him know that their spells had any effect on me.
So now it is 2017. My friend has visited a couple of times, and I tried to be as normal as possible. The first time he visited, I was honestly afraid for my life, but I tried to behave normally. The second time he visited, I was afraid at first, but I relaxed quickly. This will be his third visit. I'm much less afraid, and I wondered if I should tell him what happened to me in 2009. So much about that visit puzzles me. People around me were behaving strangely during the weekend (including my friend). Then I suddenly snapped after the weekend ended. I keep wondering if it was all in my imagination or not. I wish I could ask my friend if he remembers anything strange. Probably I should just keep the whole incident to myself. Any thoughts? I guess there is a part of me that can't accept that I imagined all these things. In the past, I never even considered asking my friend, because I assumed he would not be honest. Now I trust him more (which is progress), but I still keep wondering if some of what I experienced was real. (A therapist thought I had delusional disorder, but I think that was an overstatement. Delusional thinking has been a problem though.)
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