I can't leave my bed. I'm that scared. If I leave my bed, the woman gets mad. If I fall asleep, she likes to torture me. There's no escape anymore.

Well, there's one but I can't do that. I said I wouldn't so I'm trying not to.

I don't think she knows I'm writing this. I know she's a hallucination but why does she feel so real sometimes? Not at this moment but when it all happens.

I'm tired of being scared of my own breath. I'm tired of all this torment. And I don't know if this is the right forum for this. I'm just trying to rationalize what's happening to me.