I got down. Today my landlord called looking for the rent. It's the 6th. I just hadn't cared about anything for days. I was ashamed to be late. I usually pay on time for years. The money was there. I just neglected to write and mail the check.

I am neglecting myself. Not eating right. Sleeping too much.

Tonight he called me lazy. I had just given him a shower and was getting him dressed. I through him his socks and walked away. He said, "Every little thing bothers you. I was just kidding."

I don't know if I am just looking for an excuse to pout.