Background, I have PTSD due to childhood abuse but I am doing quite well. I however could use a bit of advice on something. How can I help my fiance understand why I occasionally get scared when play wrestling with him? He and I got together after I resolved the majority of my problems so he hasn't had to deal with many of my PTSD related issues. I don't get scared near as often or easily as I use to and most of the time I can communicate well enough to end the interaction without problems but sometimes on a bad day I can't. He has trouble telling when I am actually panicking and sometimes doesn't give me the space I need when I tell him I need it. When this happens in my panic I may lash out. I feel incredibly guilty while also feeling hurt that he would not listen when I tell him I don't want to be pinned and he feels betrayed and like he is being made out to be a bad guy. As I am about half his size and trying desperately to stay calm he never ends with more than a fading red mark but this needs to stop. Advice would be deeply appreciated.