I havent found a solution yet.
My 3yr old son was killed in a tragic accident a year and half ago, I happened to be in er at the time of his arrival. The worst longest day of my life.
I am obsessed with watching vehicle accidents on YouTube. Not because I enjoy it or anything. But since his accident I have this almost unbearable fear that I too will die in a vehicle accident. I still haven't figured out why I watch them