Forgiveness is the key. I'm lucky because my family forgave me for what I did from the start. Be with people who forgive and love you whenever you can. There are so many positive, caring people right here at PC. When you are alone and troubled, seek forgiveness from God. When you truly believe you are forgiven, you will slowly start feeling more grateful than hateful. Also, medication has helped me calm down some of my extreme emotions. Read and watch uplifting and funny things. I really do think you can get better with time!