Hey Lolina.
Maybe try doing something at home that could bring you some emotional or financial rewards. Financial maybe requires exceptional talent or determination but if it makes you happy its worth to try.
For me jobs are triggering. Just looking for a job caused me stress, panic, depression... actually everything disturbing within me goes out at the though of a normal job. Cant imagine how dreadful it would be to have one... Im lucky to have my time to heal and explore...
So there are two important factors for you: what makes you happy and what the world needs. If you combine these two its a winner.
Good luck.