So I know I have disappeared lately, I've been stuck in my head, and the whole social isolation thing. Anyway, does this make sense to anyone because the feelings keep popping up.
*possible trigger*
I'm just tired of living. Yes adulting is hard, but I can't do it anymore. What is the point? But I don't necessarily want to end it. I'm constantly looking at pictures of my nephews as reminders to stay here, but I'm just so freaking tired. My mind wanders constantly at work, my focus is here and there. And since I've been back to work, the feedback that I get doesn't seem to get any better, in fact, I think I'm getting worse. I'm just so tired. I had a SI issue last Monday and contacted my pdoc. She suggested a decrease of one of my morning meds. Can't really tell if it's done any good yet. I have an appointment that was previously scheduled with her on Tuesday. I finally found a T and I coincidentally see him that day is well. But next Tuesday seems so far away.