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Originally Posted by Marylin
...But that was thirty years ago i am much stronger,more mature, much better defended now in myself,but the past seems so real,more real than the present,and the burning humiliation is on my face again and I feel like a nobody a piece of ****.I feel like a loser,a nobody all over again,like I am stupid and will be found intellectually lacking and fall short,that someone will try and embarrass me and I won't be able to show my face again,just like thirty years ago.
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Im still working on time schemes myself. Maybe try to visualize time, as a circle, or a past-present-future line or a vertical imaginary like.
Past still exists on this scheme, and also the future. Imagine some imaginary time ideal future of your best self. But also see your past vulnerable self. See that they are all really living in imaginary time and Only your observation gives them meaning.
They are imprinted in your head and are there to stay. But seal them as illusions.
This partly helped me. But I said Im still working on it and who knows what may hit me anytime.
Good luck.