Hello all. It's been a while since I've posted so I apologize if this sounds all long winded and crazy.

About 2.5 years ago my mom passed away very unexpectedly. Pretty much ever since, I have not been satisfied with life at all. Despite some minor and a few major set backs, I have kept my job, friends, husband, and some family. I have a roof over my head, I can pay all of my bills most of the time, I have a newer and working car, a good support system and have reconnected with my father, but still, I am completely unsatisfied with life.

My job is boring, my friends don't understand (thankfully) what it's like to lose a parent, my husband is awesome but completely consumed with his own passions and problems, my family lives 2,000 miles away, my home doesn't feel like home anymore... I just don't know what's up with me. I feel like there is this void now and I have no idea how to heal it or fill it. I've tried volunteer work, painting and other hobbies. and nothing.

Ugh. I just want to run away. But starting over sounds about 1000x worse than just settling with this dull/crappy existence.

Any ideas on how to fix this?