Nothing's alright. Not one thing, but boy am I good at faking it. I've got so many problems going on but even as I fall to pieces I manage to put up that front that everything is okay. I manage to save others from seeing that I'm drowning. Everyone says talk to me, but can I really? What will they say, when I tell them I'm ready to die, not for me, but to spare them. Not saying I'm suicidal, I'm just tired of everyone around me hurting because of something I could have prevented. But everyone thinks I'm strong, I can survive, and boy am I glad they do. I know I'm not a good actor and if they look hard enough they will see. Some do see, I think, but dont want to push me and then have me break.